I still haven’t finished my school project. I’m so exhausted. It is stressing me out a lot that I haven’t done the assignment yet. I don’t have much longer before I have to submit it and if I don’t get it done my parents are going to be really angry. They just don’t understand how hard it is to be young these days. I’m actually exhausted. I’m heartbroken. I’m numb. I can’t be bothered with anything and I just want to lie down for the next twenty-four hours straight. Unfortunately, I can’t do that but I really wish I could.
It’s getting to the point that it’s so hard for me to write this essay that I’m starting to second guess myself. If I’m struggling to write something about how I want to install tapered under tray tool boxes for a living, does that mean that I don’t actually want to do that? Now I’m simultaneously numb about my present and stressed about my future. This school project sucks. I don’t want to do it anymore.
It’s hard for me to face my future. I wish that my school would just prepare us for multiple futures rather than the future that we choose in this assignment. It’s too much pressure. What if I decide that I don’t actually want to work with ute trays? Local to Melbourne there are plenty of options for careers because I live in such a buzzing city. I don’t see why I need to choose my career path today. I think that deep down I do want to build accessories for utes when I’m older, but it’s just so easy to second guess myself at the moment.
I wish I could go to my parents for support. They would just tell me to suck it up and write the essay. They would give me some spiel about how their lives were so much harder and how they had to work twice as hard to get to the position they’re in now.